So, I'm not used to doing this, but I'm seriously at my wit's end here, also it's 3 AM where I am and I just got done crying for the 3rd night in a row, so I apologize for how odd the following is about to sound.
So, about 4 days before Halloween, my boyfriends of 3 1/2 years decided to call it quits. It hurt me because instead of waiting to see me and tell me to my face, he just sends me a text. Well, I go back to masking my emotions and feelings and continue truck through school, waiting patiently for break so that I could actually talk to him in person and maybe work out what went wrong in our relationship. Well, that was the plan until a few weeks ago.
It was an average day, not much going on besides a new episode of Castle on ABC that evening when I just so happened to check what was going down on FB when I see something that rips any remaining shred of hope out of my chest. My "ex" had started a relationship with a girl who had PROMISED me that she harbored NO ROMANTIC FEELINGS TOWARDS MY EX WHAT-SO-EVER!!! Needless to say, I was a little more than furious...
I went through my week with my mask up until Friday comes, which was the day that I got head back home for Thanksgiving break. I was excited to see all my old friends until I remember that my "ex" was the one picking me up from the station. It also should be said that the hour long car ride that I endured to go back into town from the station was one of the most miserable things that I have ever done, and I've done some pretty miserable things.
Now we get into what's really bugging me. Ever since I returned home on Friday, all that I've gotten from my "ex" is a handful of texts that sound so suspiciously like the man I used to be dating, I'm seriously starting to wonder if he has MPD and one of the personalities just seems to hate my guts. It also doesn't help that the "thing" that he's currently "dating" has also managed to alienate most of his friends, so that he only has her to really hang out with these days and when she's around him, he avoids contact with me altogether, even if I send him an innocent text about something one of our friends did.
My question is this fellow Escapist: Should I bother trying to even get through to him, even if I know that the man I love is still hidden beneath of the rubbish that his current "thing" has heaped upon him, or should I just let this lie between us, with no answers given by either party?
*note: the things in quotation marks are things that could change in a moments notice, like he could go from being my ex back to being my boyfriend or he could dump the cow that he's currently latched onto.
**another note: during the entirety that we were together, he never once cheated on me, so I think that should be noted in the fact that he can be extremely faithful to whomever he is with at the time, what I'm basically saying is that I don't think he cheated and I would appreciate if that wasn't so callously flung around in response to this.
So, about 4 days before Halloween, my boyfriends of 3 1/2 years decided to call it quits. It hurt me because instead of waiting to see me and tell me to my face, he just sends me a text. Well, I go back to masking my emotions and feelings and continue truck through school, waiting patiently for break so that I could actually talk to him in person and maybe work out what went wrong in our relationship. Well, that was the plan until a few weeks ago.
It was an average day, not much going on besides a new episode of Castle on ABC that evening when I just so happened to check what was going down on FB when I see something that rips any remaining shred of hope out of my chest. My "ex" had started a relationship with a girl who had PROMISED me that she harbored NO ROMANTIC FEELINGS TOWARDS MY EX WHAT-SO-EVER!!! Needless to say, I was a little more than furious...
I went through my week with my mask up until Friday comes, which was the day that I got head back home for Thanksgiving break. I was excited to see all my old friends until I remember that my "ex" was the one picking me up from the station. It also should be said that the hour long car ride that I endured to go back into town from the station was one of the most miserable things that I have ever done, and I've done some pretty miserable things.
Now we get into what's really bugging me. Ever since I returned home on Friday, all that I've gotten from my "ex" is a handful of texts that sound so suspiciously like the man I used to be dating, I'm seriously starting to wonder if he has MPD and one of the personalities just seems to hate my guts. It also doesn't help that the "thing" that he's currently "dating" has also managed to alienate most of his friends, so that he only has her to really hang out with these days and when she's around him, he avoids contact with me altogether, even if I send him an innocent text about something one of our friends did.
My question is this fellow Escapist: Should I bother trying to even get through to him, even if I know that the man I love is still hidden beneath of the rubbish that his current "thing" has heaped upon him, or should I just let this lie between us, with no answers given by either party?
*note: the things in quotation marks are things that could change in a moments notice, like he could go from being my ex back to being my boyfriend or he could dump the cow that he's currently latched onto.
**another note: during the entirety that we were together, he never once cheated on me, so I think that should be noted in the fact that he can be extremely faithful to whomever he is with at the time, what I'm basically saying is that I don't think he cheated and I would appreciate if that wasn't so callously flung around in response to this.