Whoawhoawhoa. Whoa. Hold it right there.novixz said:I just don't think if I died, anybody would care.
You are wrong. If you died, someone- probably many someones- would be negatively affected. I don't even know you and I'm sure of that.
That is borderline suicidal thinking right there, and you need to stop that. Right now, before you hurt yourself. You need to talk to someone in real life about this, instead of bringing your problems to a whole bunch of misanthropic teenagers on the internet who are probably as pessimistic as you are. There's not much that people here can do to help you, but you can do something to change your outlook if you can get real help from real people.