Have you ever considered suicide?

[KaosuHamoni]

Twice. Well, actually, many times, but the "first" was over a period of two weeks, where I was weighing up wether I should do it, how to do it, what would happen to my family, etc, etc. I decided that no matter how shit my life is (and oh god was it shit), I could never inflict that kind of pain on my family.

 

[thenumberthirteen]

Once during the final month of my University degree. I can see now it was just the pressure, and I didn't have anyone to talk to about it and I was really worried about my future. In the end I saw that that course of action wouldn't solve my problems. When I was at my worst I just took a step back, and watched an episode of Firefly which made me feel a lot better.

 

[hopeneverdies]

Considered it a lot. It's totally normal for people my age though. I just think, "Look, all it's going to do is hurt everyone else. You wouldn't want them to not only feel sad but feel responsible would you? Learn to deal with it and stop being selfish."

 

[Spoonius]

Jesus... the Escapist's full of suicidal people!

Well then, it seems that intelligence and happiness ARE inversely proportional. Speaks volumes about the world we live in, huh?

 

[Criquefreak]

If so what changed your mind?

What advice do you have for anyone currently considering suicide?

NOTE: I'm not suicidal myself. Just been hearing a lot about suicide lately.

Multiple times a day for about a decade.
Never completed an attempt, mostly because I'm not enough of a &*#$% to hurt the people I care about through my own death.

'What changed my mind?'
I asked my parents for permission to die, it was denied, sort of validation of my worth to others even if I don't see any self-worth. As family and friends seem to value me more than I do myself, just developed a psychological permission scheme from it that excludes me from the equation.

'Advice for those currently considering it?'
The depths of depression adjusts personal perceptions towards a view of constant negatives; support systems such as friends and family are an ideal if not vital backup and comparison to your more clouded perceptions.
The alternative of professional psychotherapy, while helpful, is a fall back position should one be lacking such support systems or have slipped far enough to be dangerously dysfunctional. (A stranger's advice often carries less weight than familiar person's.)
Were situations truly hopeless in your life, suicide wouldn't even be an option.

 

[Westaway]

This thread makes me sad.

Do explain.

I am eager to hear why.

Because all these people have considered/attempted suicide, derp.

 

[Grand_Arcana]

Sort of. I've thought from time to time "death would end my suffering". Thing is: I've too much pride and raw determination to Rage Quit life. I'll stick it out for the next fifty years with a morbid curiosity of what else life has to offer me.

To those considering suicide: fight a bear. It's a win-win situation. If you slit your wrists or took a bunch of painkillers, everyone is just going to remember how much of a miserable lump you were. If you survive, you'll spend a year in some mental ward. If you fight a bear, and lose, everyone would be like "Remember that BMF who punched a black bear!"

If you win: You Just Killed a Fuckin' Bear! You've got nothing to be depressed about you fine specimen of man/woman.

 

[garfoldsomeoneelse]

It used to be a daily preoccupation. Fortunately, that time in my life got left far, far behind.

 

[Layzor]

Nope, though when I'm too old to pull of that little skip you do when you're crossing a road and a car comes I plan on getting someone to shoot me with an rpg.

 

[viranimus]

Not for myself, No. However I have more than a handful of people I would like to volunteer for it.

I think the depth of my consideration of suicide went as far as figuring out what ways I would consider doing it if I would ever do it. Ive never actually thought about doing it, But I know I prolly couldnt use a gun.. Hell Im diabetic and It takes forever for me to press the button on the little pin prick device. I figured that if I were to do it, the only way I would, would have to be a pain free manner. Something like CO2 posioning, OD on sleep pills, possibly hanging, And my all time favorite, drowning in a pool on a cruise ship just for the sake of irony!

Honestly Suicide never has made a lot of sense to me. Sure life is shitty at times, hell, most of the time. However there is absolutely no 100% way of knowing what if anything awaits you after death. Sure it might be nothing, but it might well be eternal torment. Thats a problem we all have to face eventually, why on earth would you want to hurry up and face it?

 

[Jedoro]

Yes, because I believe I must be willing to stare death in the face if I'm to bring it on anyone else. That, and when your life insurance has a suicide clause and financially things are getting worse for your family, it's at least an option. I like to at least acknowledge every option, as distasteful as it is.

What stops me? My wallet. [http://www.bmfwallets.com/images/products/001.png]

Advice? In Death, Sacrifice.

 

[Bobipine]

I never considered suicide, I've thought about it though.
For some reason I started picturing random thoughts of killing (mostly me) and decided to just think about the matter and clear that up before it culminate. So with a lot of thought on the subject, I never considered it, or will never consider it, just doesn't feel I can allow myself to die without fighting back, if it makes any sense. My life's not bad, just boring, a lot more people are in worst cases than I am and most manage to live on.

 

[Paksenarrion]

Sometimes every other day, but usually every other week. Every so often, it comes to a peak at once an hour.

To be fair, it's not that I think about suicide in the usual sense. It's more along the lines of, "Everyone's lives would be better if I were dead. I would stop complicating matters and allow everyone to go on with their lives if I wasn't here."

And then there's the "if I get into a car accident and die, that would be nice" thoughts as I drive home. But then I realize that the person who crashes into me might also get hurt, and I start hoping for a random satellite to drop out of orbit and hit me.

These thoughts stem from feeling like a drain on civilization. All it takes is a strong suspicion that the world would be better off without my bungling, and away my thoughts race!

But, yes, I have problems. I should talk to my therapist about them today during my appointment. It might help if he communicated via lolcats, or something.

No no, that pretty much is "the usual sense". And I hope to Ceiling Cat that you aren't serious. What about all the little snot-nosed kids you take care of? What would they do without you? What happened to the whole "...crush your enemies, see them driven before you, and to hear the lamentation of their women." attitude?

P.S. Does the lolcats reference help?

XD You do cheer me up, thank you. ^_^

It's never really any one reason. Sometimes, the feelings stem from guilt, or anger, or shame, or fear, or just being so tired of living. Throughout, there's an underlying feeling of being powerless.

I love my kids. I love them so much. Sometimes I feel that they would do so much better without me. I do so many things wrong, even when I mean to do right. It's not just enough to want to do good things. I need to be able to do good things properly. So much trust and affection from them; I don't want to fail them. I wish I was perfect.

That's the overriding message.

I wish I was perfect.

That makes me want to punch my lights out, if I were facing myself in mortal combat.

I have nothing to complain about, and yet I keep wanting more. What a selfish *****.

Damn, this is kinda depressing. I'm sorry, ceiling cat. I probably know what you're thinking:

"Time to watch my favorite person masturb-...oh. This is depressing. I'm a go listen to Linkin Park nao..."

 

[WhisperingShadows]

Quite a few times, actually. The only point I see in this life is to care for my disabled mother. I'm much too proud to kill myself, though, I'd rather go out via self-sacrifice, or something.

 

[Crazy_Dude]

Sort of. I've thought from time to time "death would end my suffering". Thing is: I've to much pride and raw determination to Rage Quit life. I'll stick it out for the next fifty years with a morbid curiosity of what else life has to offer me.

To those considering suicide: fight a bear. It's a win-win situation. If you slit your wrists or took a bunch of painkillers, everyone is just going to remember how much of a miserable lump you were. If you survive, you'll spend a year in some mental ward. If you fight a bear, and lose, everyone would be like "Remember that BMF who punched a black bear!"

If you win: You Just Killed a Fuckin' Bear! You've got nothing to be depressed about you fine specimen of man/woman.

But what if there are no bears or large dangerous animals around to fight?

 

[Peteron]

Suicide is also cowardice, and an unhonorable way to die.

Why does that matter?

Different things matter to different people. I live by a moral code.

 

[ChippedShoulder]

Once or twice. Not because of any particular depressing events; mostly just a sense of curiosity at what death would feel like. Meh, gonna find out in about 60-70 years (hopefully) anyway so I can wait. That and life is freakin sweet.

 

[razor343]

Many times, simply because I am curious as to what happens AFTER, if anything. Still, i'd never go through with it, it's still nice to dream