unreal713 said:
Devil's Advocate:
I'm speaking as a person who has at one point attempted suicide, rather than someone who was affected by it. Death in general is a difficult thing to deal with, and don't get me wrong, I'm not endorsing suicide. But the situation that goes through each death must be varied enough that there isn't just a clear answer on whether it's right or wrong. I guess I'm brining in the whole thing about euthanasia into this as well. I don't really believe in the 'sanctity of life', so yeah...
One thing I don't think is right, is when young people (like under 18) kill or try to kill themselves. They're not old enough to make the judgement and people should be caring for them. But, like a movie rated 18, or porn or whatever, if you're an adult you should be able to make the choice yourself....
I've tried multiple times. I guess the disconnect for me is that while I treasure the lives of everyone around me, I haven't taken my own so seriously. More to the point, I haven't seen it as the gift it is, but more like a curse that some selfish God threw me into this bubbling Hell, and left me here to suffer.
But for those who have left us, by their own choice, all I can say is that they loved those they left behind, it just wasn't as strong a tie anymore as getting away from all the negative feelings, the draining of their time, energy and heart by the personal demons plaguing them. I can only hope that life goes on elsewhere, but if not, if we truly are nothing more than a collection of neurons randomly firing, then I believe that they take a piece of us with them, and leave pieces of themselves behind too.
I am one of the lucky ones, in that I failed (twice), or some tiny piece of hope remained (probably about once every six months for a while), prompting me to reach out to my friends, and like the angels they are, they reached back and anchored me here with them. They are the blessing of my life.
But like I said, sometimes, in some of the darkest places, where light only denotes another train about to run you over, in some of the deepest holes, it's not that they don't love us. It's that they're yearning towards freedom, towards the light we sense but cannot see, towards the dream of an end to the pain, to the anguish, to the struggle; where we can simply be. In peace, and love, and light. And it's a powerful dream...