No theres no reason to its going to happen regardless of what I do so why would I waste time and energy on worrying about it, I don't think I'll ever be "ready" to die there will always be something more I could do more to learn more to experience so I'll never feel as though its my time and I'll fight to live as long as I can but there are worse things than death and part of accepting that to me meant coming to terms with the idea of me ceasing to exist.