WTF is wrong with you TC???
I used to smoke too much weed too, try sleeping more and thinking about shit less.
Why? What makes you strongly believe that you are human?
Human: any living or extinct member of the family Hominidae characterized by superior intelligence, articulate speech, and erect carriage
Sound like anyone (everyone) you know? Because it should.
What makes you unique and worthy of the life that was given to you and had yet to be taken away? Do you value this life? Are you happy or content?
These are those questions that even the most dedicated of philosophers try to avoid. We all wonder why we have been given life, and why we are here, but there is no TRUE answer.
Those of us who are alive certainly value this life quite highly, because otherwise we would end it at the slightest sign of unhappiness.
And being happy or content can go two ways as far as I can tell. There's blissful ignorance and/or knowledge. Ignorance is really the source of true happiness. For example, when you are in "love" you are being ignorant to many things, either on purpose or not, for the sake of your loved one and yourself. Knowledge, however, is the source of contentedness. Be forewarned, taking either of these paths can lead one to insanity (The blissfully ignorant evangelist vs. the suicidally depressed genius).