almost nothing scares me,
except not being able to think anymore...
i dont think ill ever be able to accept that at some point, i wont be able to think, that everything will just stop...
retribution and pain on the other hand, are things i would look forward to...
i actually enjoy quite being in pain, and not that retribution actually exists, but when i go up to pugatory, im either staying there forever... where i can still disobey christianity and molest all the other souls... and where i dont have to live by some pathetically over-strict, age old rulebook that no one in this day and age could possibly live up to... or, straight to hell... for some pain etc.
heaven and hell are very flawed concepts if a man can prefer hell to heaven, but its not like theres even an iota that anything so closely based on how humans think of things, its either good or bad... and the middle ground is there as a temporary measure for those who cant decide, wether they wish to be good... or bad... nothing in existance is that polar. :\
cool, i ranted off-topic... *cough* soooooo yah, im pretty scared of being unconscious, especially if its for eternity.