well my fellow gamers today i cancelled my xbox live accounts and deleted them entirely. This is a pretty big deal for me because iv been a daily gamer since i was 4(i took over my older bros N64), and im not sure when i exactly became a hardcore gamer but it was also at a young age. for example i was beating golden eye for the n64 on 007 difficulty without getting shot when i was 8. well needless to say i can wholeheartedly say that im addicted to gaming and have been most my life. and why im doing this... im not sure. i had mental breakdown yesterday, and realized i havent grown up at all, all i do is sit in my basement and game, im 17 years old, never had a job, never had a girlfriend, and im doing poorly at school just so i can beat some kids who ill never see or meet at a game that doesnt matter and unless your TSQUARED or a game designer.. it doesnt matter. well to me at least. im not trying to diss any of you, because i know that im about as bad as it gets when it comes to gaming to much. and just to clarify im never making another live account, i dont have any other console and my pc cant play games at all really. but im not stopping gaming all together i still plan on picking up borderlands later this fall i just hope i dont put as many hours on that as i did on morrowind and oblivion.
so i ask you all, will this help me grow up and if so how much?
and am i overreacting to much? was this a good idea?
EDIT: i should make it clear that i was at the point where it wasnt even recreation anymore it was something i literally needed to do.
and to be clear, i dont blame video games, i dont think they are evil at all. i love games, just to much haha. but on a serious note, i dont feel games are childish or any of that bullshit that old people always say. i hold no grudge against them, its my fault i know
i understand that if i play a little get my priorities straight then i will be able to game, but i dont have the will to do that. i only play too much. i wish i could play just a little to medium amounts but i cant do it, which is why i guess its better for me to stop entirely. im not trying to make any of you stop playing, i love gaming and there is no age restriction on gamers.
so i ask you all, will this help me grow up and if so how much?
and am i overreacting to much? was this a good idea?
EDIT: i should make it clear that i was at the point where it wasnt even recreation anymore it was something i literally needed to do.
and to be clear, i dont blame video games, i dont think they are evil at all. i love games, just to much haha. but on a serious note, i dont feel games are childish or any of that bullshit that old people always say. i hold no grudge against them, its my fault i know
i understand that if i play a little get my priorities straight then i will be able to game, but i dont have the will to do that. i only play too much. i wish i could play just a little to medium amounts but i cant do it, which is why i guess its better for me to stop entirely. im not trying to make any of you stop playing, i love gaming and there is no age restriction on gamers.
