WOPR said:
Okay yeah this is a life story but it has a point
I've been beaten up my whole life (weather it be because I'm weird, because I'm poor, or because I'm 18 and have never had a girlfriend)
but in 7th grade (weird/poor) things went too far
the Football team would always hold me down and take turns hitting me
or pelting me with tennis and baseballs
scares bruises and black eyes everywhere
the teachers said "they're just boys being boys"
then one day at the gym, we were doing the rope climb
you climb this really tall rope, ring the bell, then fall onto this really soft cooshy pad so you don't have to climb all the way back down (the pad itself was like 4-5 feet tall, and felt like a tempurpedic bed)
well I rang the bell and slid down the rope a little (because I didn't trust them for a reason) then about half way down the rope I let go and fell for the pad
the quarterback then proceeded to pull the pad out from under me and I hit the hard-wood floor with a loud thud
everyone laughed
I then lost my temper and garroted the quarterback with the rope (wrapped it around his neck and pulled tight) yelling that he would never do that again
then things became very serious; the teacher yelled at the class to "get him off of him" and well yeah you can see where things went
in the end, I got expelled for hurting the quarterback
and when I showed the bruises, crutches, and scars and told them how I got them they said "it's one thing to harm the student body, it's another thing to make up stories to justify it"
...the principal then tried to convince me to take up something to relieve my anger such as football, or baseball, or soccer...
goes to show what a jock he was as well
off note: I ended up taking archery in boyscouts and was the only one that could bullseye every time on the 20 yard target... I was told that I shouldn't take an anger outlet that would let me kill people from 60 feet away with a sharp stick
EDIT: Crap I forgot the question; why is it that the jocks can get away with ANYTHING but the second I defend myself after being badly injured (with 33 witnesses mind you) I get in major trouble?
EDIT 2: sorry actually I wasn't "expelled" I was just "suspended" for a quarter of the year
when I got back the jocks started beating me with bricks (apparently a drunk driver hit the wall next to the church or something)
and I just ran into the office as fast as I could and the second the principal heard my voice and the phrase "law suit"
well...
we had a talk
then I was suspended for my own safety
because he didn't want me to be in an environment where I could get hurt
(you know, because punishing the victim is TOTALLY what you're supposed to do... not punish the [4] offenders!)
EDIT 3: I'm not like this anymore and this has been taken care of (got half the kids there to stop attending and shut down one of the two schools they had... which were right across the street from each other haha)
Just throwing that out there
I'm not really a violent person (yes I am I just keep it in- and blame society)
so no one think I'm a freak or anything lol
just was wondering if anyone else has things like this happen and if this is running rampent
First off, /respect for the courage you showed in posting. I wish you had people IRL you could have told this to and relied on to help you.
To your question, yes. This has been happening for ever. You're not alone, and your feelings are exactly right for what happened to you, so don't blame yourself or be afraid of those feelings. That was serious bullsh8 - just like when I was growing up and being hunted through the halls of my school by gangs, while the school officials pretended nothing was happening so they could feel like their jobs were safe.
As to why it happens, scumbags always gang together and push each other to be bigger scumbags, and they can't do that without victims. So while the law can't really hurt them, they rob, beat, and rape for as long as they can get away with it. The amount of pain that is visited upon the young in our "civilized" societies is shockingly huge and almost completely undocumented, and that's something that I see is crucial to our future. If we want a healthy, strong society, we probably shouldn't damage large amounts of people when they're young and then just hope they get over it.
As to why those scumbags infest sports, many kids start getting out of control and are directed by adults to sports so they can "learn to control themselves". Riiight. Grouping a bunch of out-of-control kids together is SO not going to create a feedback loop for the behavior. And the sports program doesn't help at all with the "winner" mentality, as it gives them a shield for their behavior - as long as they win the games or are perceived as winners in public, they can be vile POSs.
But then comes the really disturbing part - those scumbags then grow up enough for the law to matter and start realizing what that can mean, so they then go for jobs that can protect them from their past. Like police officer, armed forces, and politics, as well as private industry jobs that give them positions of authority over others (like school official). It's a way of both addressing the insecurities they feel over their past behavior and retroactively enabling it - "look at me now, I totally got away with it". But they're still scumbags at heart - I can tell you stories of people in positions of real authority I've met who openly admitted their past to me and then openly used their authority to get away with the same behavior, just to prove they could.
I am glad that the situation has improved for you though. I hope you move on to a much better life and do some good things with it. If you want to do something with your anger, jump on top of it and ride it to someplace better in life. Don't let psychobabblers tell you you have to have an "outlet" - that's handing control of yourself over to the feelings you got at the hands of scumbags, and that means THEY are controlling your life, not you. It's your life, your choices.
