Your first love

[loc978]

havent loved yet.

EDIT: I mean, having girlfriends doesn't mean you love them, right?

If you don't think you've loved in a more than platonic fashion, you haven't. No one can define such things for you.

 

[pharaoh malik]

My First One, I want to brutally torture and murder.

My Second, I want to beat with a cane.

As you can tell, I've lost almost all respect for women. But I'm Happy.

Aw, come on now, we aren't all bad.

 

[Reaper195]

First girl I ever loved was killed in a car crash. Turned me out seriously fucked up back then, but after copious amounts of alcohol, and many good friends...as well as about eight years addition, things are never better.

 

[Roamin11]

First love... For me it was a girl with long, curly brown hair and these huge brown eyes. She was tan and tall for a girl, and she lived in a log cabin. We were on the swim team together in the 7th grade, and I never worked up the courage to ask her out until a few of my teammates told her I "liked" her. I was right there when they told her, too. I thought I would die from embarrassment when it came out, but I didn't, and she said "sure." Off to the races it was from there.
We'd kiss outside the YMCA after swim practice. We hung out together at her house almost every day after school when we didn't have practice. We'd have our parents drop us off at movies. We went everywhere together. We even spent the night together once or twice, though nothing came of it besides more kissing. It was every 12-year-old's dream relationship.
Then, at the beginning of 9th grade, the high school gossip engine started working its magic on the two of us. Rumors started floating around that she was pregnant by me, despite the fact that we were both still virgins. That, combined with this newfound social awkwardness that came with being a freshman, ended up tearing us apart.
For a while after that, I couldn't let her go. I had been shut down inside. I couldn't function for months. We still spoke sometimes, but I didn't know how to be just friends with her. I learned slowly. But then, she started dating this douchebag with a black belt and a chip on his shoulder who said that if I ever spoke to her again, he'd bring a gun to school and kill me. (Needless to say, my high school wasn't a great place to be.)
I ignored him. Kept talking to her. They ended up breaking up anyway.
She invited me to her 16th birthday party. She also invited another former boyfriend and, to my surprise, a former girlfriend. That night, after everyone else had left, I lingered for an hour or so and talked her through some of her relationship and sexuality issues. It was the first natural conversation we'd had in three years. For that, I got a kiss and an acknowledgement that she knew I still loved her. I was a true friend, she'd said. Nothing more, nothing less.
That was the last time I ever saw her. She's at some out-of-state college now, and all my attempts at getting back in touch with her have failed. She seems to have vanished off the face of the earth, in fact.
There are few things I wouldn't give to talk to her again.

That story has truly plucked my heart strings! And you have my sympathy....

*offers hug*

 

[fgdfgdgd]

Well, sure, she was a little pale, kept to herself mostly, wan't a social creature, sure, she wasn't the coolest kid on the block, her memory wasn't so great. However, she entertained me, she stayed with me, she was great in bed, on the ground and hell, anywhere really. I loved her til the day she died, then I cried and swore to never love again.

<3 Playstation 1

Spoiler: Yeah, okay, i'll be serious now.

My first love, well we were young, we were scared, we never knew what the hell we were doing, it ended and we stayed friends, i couldn't really have asked for more out of two 12 year olds.

 

[Aur0ra145]

Mine was awesome, ended sadly because of distance we decided to let each other go. Tried to get back together even with distance (we had a freak day where she was less than 200 miles away, so I jumped in a plane and flew myself down to see her), didn't last again, we agreed upon the same thing. Now I don't even talk to her, b/c it just sparks up old good feelings and we'll want to try it again and it will inevitably end the same way again. Been going on for 2 years. I'm contemplating if I should call her for Christmas this year or not. Lord I want to, but I don't want to bring anymore heart ache.

It really sucks, the situation and all. But I only look at her and the times we had with a smile on my face. I couldn't of had a better first love, and it just sucks how things ended up. It all started my freshman year of college, and now that I'm a senior about to graduate (hopefully) I could get myself stationed close to her if I ADSO and request it (but I'm a stark believer in not doing dumb stuff for girls.) I just don't know. During one of our talks she said she'd marry me, and I think she still feels that way. Damn it all to hell.

The hell of it is, is that on my way into college, I'd had flings, at the time thought it was love but about a month after wards realized it was not. But this girl, really is my first true love. I starkly didn't even believe in the true love thing before I met her. It was crazy, intense, happened very quickly, and I as well as her fell very hard for each other.

A love born under the stars of west Texas in the Chihuahuan desert, my favorite place in the world, and hers as well. Damn man, sad, retrospective thread.

EDIT: a music video a made after the last time I saw her. Note: last pic is of me on the very porch out in the desert we first met. Must say the song is just about perfect, all the airplanes are because I'm a pilot and the one thing I love are airplanes, and now for a long while her.

Spoiler

 

[Griphphin]

None as of yet, but hey, I've got a lot of years and people ahead of me, so I'm not exactly pessimistic about it.

 

[superbatranger]

That...hasn't happened for me, and I don't know if it will.

 

[Wolf-AUS]

I think it was year 7, in fact, it was, when I started high school, a girl in my class, huge brown eyes, beautiful hair and was always happy, I had the same thing as another person in these forums, I was too shy to say anything to her, i was always really nice to her, but I probably came off as that nice kid who's a little werid, haha, that was until my friends outed me to her. Without a doubt the most awkward moment, that seemed to stretch on forever. She kinda blushed an ran away, I probably would have too if a group of 3 people had bailed me up and told me that the fourth one liked me. Anyway, she came up to me later and we ended up going on a few "dates" or as close as you can get as a 13 year old. Best time of my life, movies, hanging out at her place, parents driving as around while we sat in the back, hah! The awkwardness of having absolutely no idea what to do. Then, nothing really came of it, we kinda drifted apart as we fell in with separate groups and for the rest of high school I only ever spoke to her in passing, until about year 11 when it sort of became one group with everyone, and we became good friends again, kinda drifted through the last two years of high school with the group and guessed that it had been a bit of puppy love, but towards the end of the last year, I realised it was still there, I still found her so enjoyable, her joyfulness was contagious to me. Then, I moved 24 drive away, with very little chance I'll see her again in the next four years, except for next year when I'll be home for 10 days, which would be the most heart breaking conversation I'd ever have because of what it would be about.

This thread is a bit of a double edged sword reminiscing happiness only to have it shot down by the feeling of what you've lost hey?

 

[RazgrizInferno]

My first love left me with a huge case of "fuck the world and everyone in it."

She was a nasty combination of everything I hate in life, and I didn't know it until it was too late.

I learned alot about myself from the ordeal, though, and I still wonder if I would have done it all again knowing what I do now.

I probably would do it all again, but I would see the end coming and I would end it in a much more satisfying manner.

 

[Monkfish Acc.]

Didn't happen. Never going to happen. Don't want it to happen.
My first love is destroying myself and getting anyone else involved is downright irresponsible.

Love is all about take. People assume there is also give, but that's because they want to pretend all their partner's take was given up willingly.
Both parties, if they cared at all, will leave with their own gnarled emotional battle scars. I'm not interested in earning my own, and I'm definitely not interested in inflicting them on anyone else.

 

[unindexedsearchengine]

well ,i'm 13 and i'm in the process of loving my first love ,but there's not much hope, cuz one of my friends messed it up completely

 

[SoulIsTheGoal]

My First One, I want to brutally torture and murder.

My Second, I want to beat with a cane.

As you can tell, I've lost almost all respect for women. But I'm Happy.

Aw, come on now, we aren't all bad.

Most of my friends are girls and I can say you're not all bad. I think every person is capable of being a complete arsehole (intentionally or unintentionally) at some point. It just so happens that we only really talk about it when it's in the context of relationships/sex.

 

[Jonluw]

Yet to have a first love. This makes me sad

Well, it's like I always say, "Better to not have loved at all than to have loved and lost."

That's what I've always figured, but after watching Clannad, I have started to think that might not be the case.

 

[MelasZepheos_v1legacy]

My first love was also my best friend.

Yeah that ended badly. Turns out she couldn't see me as anything more than a friend. Now we don't talk, don't see each other, haven't had any communication for two years.

Not that that's gonna stop me from looking or labelling all love as pointless, because the few months we were together were some of the bestest ever.

 

[Leg End]

My First(and only) love:
Sakura Kinomoto

She has turned me from a souless bastard to a slightly less souless bastard.
When she is near, I feel emotion... I feel... happy.

Only she can allow me to feel.

That's almost as creepy as seeing twilight fangirls going gaga over Edward Cullen.

And your point is...?

The deeper you delve, the creepier it gets.

 

[MelziGurl]

The first guy I loved also happens to be the one who broke my heart 4 months ago. Now he's just an arsehole, it's safe to say he won't be forgiven any time soon.

 

[pharaoh malik]

My First One, I want to brutally torture and murder.

My Second, I want to beat with a cane.

As you can tell, I've lost almost all respect for women. But I'm Happy.

Aw, come on now, we aren't all bad.

Most of my friends are girls and I can say you're not all bad. I think every person is capable of being a complete arsehole (intentionally or unintentionally) at some point. It just so happens that we only really talk about it when it's in the context of relationships/sex.

Yea. I'd say guys are all assholes -- but I know they aren't. Just the ones I happen to fall for. >:| My guy friends are great. I guess things can seem much easier when you don't try and go beyond the friendship level.