"FUCK THAT ***** YOU IDIOT"
sorry for the language, but thats exactly how i would Yell at my self or i would never understand

, but to elaborate, about 15 years ago (or more i don´t remember exactly when) I had a girlfriend that i loved with passion, the thing is, i still was a virgin and she wasn´t, well we got to 2nd base, but thats all, we would never do more, the main reason, i was scared, inexperienced and stupid, later she dumped me after a while because she wasn´t getting any, and when i found out that, i felt like a complete idiot, i felt ashamed, i felt less of a man and it made me obsesed with the idea of sex... i have always wondered how my life would had turned out if i had dared to go further in that moment we were both alone in her room and after fooling around for a while i asked her if we could go watch some tv haha