sam42ification said:
Ever since i went into high school i feel all my inocents has been lost and i've turned into a depressed, angry, nerdy, anti-social, sick, evil basterd. I just hate every one. Every one should die in a whole even me. I have a hour bus trip home from school. This is when my feelings are at there strongest. Every one on bus is a dick. I have my reasons for hating every one but i think you guys could proberly guess them. So is it normal to have these feelings and are there other people out there like me? (Just to lighten up the mood a little i'm want to do a little survey. Could every one please put what country they come from at the end of their status? I don't any one bagging out peoples countries otherwise you will just make my hate grow). I'm from Australia.
No, it's not normal, however at the same time the attitude isn't all that uncommon today. Pretty much what your saying is you've become another angst ridden emo. People have written songs, books, and video games all about exactly how you say you feel. There are entire philosophies dedicated to nilhism, and plenty of "back to nature" organizations that when you get down to it pretty much preach that the best thing humanity could do morally would be to destroy itself. PETA at it's most extreme is one of those groups.
In the end you'll probably get over it.
Speaking for myself I went through a phase where I was pretty upbeat, then when I face a reality check I hit something similar to where you are now. I eventually settled into a middle ground position as a militant cynic. To put it bluntly I think 99% of the problems we face today are actually due to tolerance and compromise. Ideas meant to inspire peaceful co-existance have actually created an enviroment where such co-existance turns into everyone being uniformly miserable and up in everyone's faces. That and the simple fact that human life has increasingly little value because there are so many people, despite being social creatures there are limited resources even in the most advanced societies, and the end result is with everything so stretched we all wind up becoming entirely mercenary to each other even if blows chips. You might start out deciding you don't want to be that way, but as time goes on it becomes harder and harder not to be, I think a lot of people's problems today are that they want to be good people, but simply can't.
At any rate, if you listen to my political rants, you'll notice I tend to put morality and compromise on a back burner, argue in terms of "us or them", advocate mass murder and the destruction of entire cultures at times, and all kinds of things. That's because ironically I feel the greater good would be served by ceasing to try and balance and compromise everything. Not to mention that simply having less people on the planet would solve a lot
of problems we've got what? 12 billion people on the planet or something like that? Get rid of 8 billion of them through a good old fashioned global war of extermination, no matter who wins, and then do whatever it takes to prevent a reactive baby boom. That means less strain on resources, leading to less outright competition, and it also means that whomever wins can also then make some of those compromises and live and let live attitudes work a bit better.
Or simply put, even if it means my death, I believe an end to the world as we know it is good for everyone. I don't want everyone to die, but I believe most people should die. My opinions being based more on cold logic (which I'm not going to go into more detail on today) than anything. Emotive thinking is fine for some things, but I think not balancing it with enough reason has caused a lot of the problems we face now.
... and yes, in short what I am saying makes me a monsterous arsehole. It's kind of depressing when you realize that, but still feel your right.
I'm from the USA incidently.
Also going bt the news, if this is a recent thing for you, the flooding might have something to do with it. Everything I've said aside, natural disasters tend not to inspire positive and upbeat thinking, and I was reading stuff about parts of Australia being under like 8 meters of water.
