joebthegreat said:
And this is the sort of behavior that makes everybody hate you and makes the people at school treat you like shit.
It's a stupid vicious cycle that people bring upon themselves. Stop being so hateful and unlikable to everybody and you'll find out that most of those evil "others" are actually pretty cool people, and you can learn a thing or two from them.
Was any part of what you did cool? Or was it just annoying?
Cool? I'm not cool. Never have been, never will be. In fact, cool was not part of my goal. Making everyone hate me was. You don't get that
the goal of my doing that stuff was to have hatrid directed towards me. I
wanted people to hate me. More than that, I wanted them to be
afraid of me. Not in the "I have immense say over stuff" pseudo-politcal kind of way, but in the "He's insane and might murder you. Don't talk to him, hell, don't even get near him, if you can avoid it," kind of fear.
And yes, it was annoying. For me. I had to school-only stalk a kid for 4 weeks. That took a fair amount of preperation (which consisted entirely of figuring out that he had his lunch period at the same time as me. I should probably mention that the stalking was mostly incidental, where I would see him on the way to class and make it look like I was following him, or it was lunch time, when I actually did).
Also, I never thought of anyone as the "Evil others." I thought of everyone the same (and still do); vague disinterest. I simply don't care about others I don't know, at all, untill they give me a reason to care, be it positive or negative. If it's positive, and if you'll let me, I'll probably try to be your friend. If it's negative, I will activelly avoid you. If it's negative and you than proceed to bother me... actually, I won't do much of anything for a long while. It's only when it persists or is particularly annoying that I react.
Actually, thinking about it, I was probably at that level of extremeness (making people hate me) because I was always that "other" who no-one accepted, but unlike most, I enjoyed that position. I liked being left alone, so the bullies, jocks, etc, had to try more intensive stuff to try and bully me, which backfired because, well, you can figure it out.
Thanks! I had been curious as to why I was always a bit too extreme in my methods of dealing with bullies and idiots, and now I know why. You worded your post just right to make me come to the answer on my own.
And yes, I'm being serious.
If I was rude, I apologize, as it was not my intent. Also, if I ofended you directly with my previous post, I apologize for that as well, as it wasn't my intent then, either!