Well, when I was a kid I rarely talked, but every time I bothered saying something, either my brothers or my parents would say something like "Nobody cares" or "Shut up" and last time I saw my brother he said to a bunch of people when I started talking "Just ignore him, nothing that he ever says is important or makes sense, he's just an idiot", and they wondered why I am antisocial and have trouble talking to other people -_-"
And there's also that time my father told me that I was nothing but a fag and that real men don't cry while he slapped me, right after I managed to escape out of the bathroom that was on flames, because I accidentally dropped a candle... Oh yeah and I was 7, that's the day I promised myself that I would never cry again, and I did kind of well I maintained that until I was 15 and had a some sort of bizarre nervous attack or something, I don't know what it was I never saw a doctor for that, though I'm not sure that counts since I was more laughing like a crazy person while I punched some guy and tears were pouring out of my eyes, it was bizarre it didn't even felt like I was doing it, more like if I was watching it happen from a distance.
On relation to that previous story, when my other brother said I was certifiably insane and used that as an example that I should be locked up in an insane asylum, I have always been told I'm crazy by everyone, so deep down inside I'm afraid that it may be true so if there's one thing that can hurt me it's evidence that I may actually be not well in the head, I don't want to rely on pills or anything, seriously almost every day I think about it, but I will never get myself checked out because, what if I'm actually crazy?
[sub]And no, I never got any hugs either but I don't need them, because I hate hugs.
[sub]If some of this post makes no sense it's because it was made late at night, and it got way trimmed down, it was more than twice as long.[/sub][/sub]
