xDarc said:
2012 Wont Happen said:
A very interesting read. I noticed you remember quite a bit, but much of it sounds detached as I was expecting to hear how some of that stuff made you feel. Maybe it's too long or too much for the forums. It does sound like you thought about your environment hard enough to start seeking out your own knowledge a bit early in development. Hard enough to reflect on it.
Some of the small details you pick out would make for some interesting writing though.
It was all really surreal, seeing the burning building on live TV and the second plane and everything hitting. It just didn't seem possible that we were under attack. For the first seven years of my life, I thought the only thing we had left to be afraid of in the U.S. were muggers and murderers and other domestic threats. I heard my family saying that Bush would hurt the country, as they had lived in Texas with him as governor, but I didn't really know how. Before that, I just sort of assumed that war was a thing of the past for us, and we were totally secure. I was only seven, and hadn't really learned a lot of our history, and certainly didn't understand that what I did learn. I thought that conflict was over with the end of the Cold War, and that nobody could hate the U.S. enough to attack us.
Had the attacks not happened, I might still be a Christian. If they hadn't happened, I probably would never have started reading about politics, and wouldn't be a Socialist. If they hadn't happened, my brother wouldn't have been to Iraq twice, and he wouldn't be shipping off to hot-zones in Afghanistan. Nationalism, and anti-Islamic sentiment probably wouldn't be so high. All the effects of the attack seem very real to me. However, the attacks were so surreal at the time that, while I know that they happened as a point of historical fact, while the effects of the attacks have changed me so much, and while I've learned about the method and religious and political motivations of the attacks, it just still doesn't register as real. I tend to seem sort of detached when talking about the attacks, because the attacks on the towers, followed by the anthrax attacks, really just seemed so surreal at the time that I still can't really get my head around it. Sometimes thinking about it, the reality of it just sort of hits me, and its crazy, but then its gone.
This might not make a lot of sense the way I worded it, but its the best explanation I can give.