I bought it a couple years back, joined a game, commented a bit on how we were doing (Not half bad). THEN I was told "SHUT THE FUCK UP" or, "Lol this kid is a noob". Every server, same thing. I've gathered TF2 isn't really a game for talking or socializing, just really silent understanding and a common goal. Once you get into that one class your good at, the game gets so much better. I recently found my medicing skills are better then my others. Maybe because Medic is easy to do, but I never really made it as the others. Join a game, get on, and just play. So what if you suck, everyone does. Don't care if someone talks, you learn to blot it out. Most servers only kick for AFKing or being an overall dick. And since your a person who doesn't like losing, then just do your part the best you can, let your team shape up and take example of you. It's about being YOUR best, not expecting your team to do the work. Maybe the game just isn't for you, who knows. But you did buy it, so give it a go and play your hardest. Only when you give your best can you see if the game is truly for you.