Epictank of Wintown said:
You know what I'm finding utterly hilarious about this thread? All these people saying "But killing people doesn't make any sense!" Really? You know WHY?
He. Was. Psychotic. Out of his mind. Loopy. Crazy. Insane.
To the rest of you basically spouting 'lol loser lol', try being rejected by every woman you talk to for nineteen solid years and feeling like you're doing everything you can to get it right. It'd wear even the most stout-hearted individual down.
Am I defending his murder of three innocent women? No.
Do I think this could have been avoided? Yes. The warning signs were there. The general populace just isn't educated enough to see them, as usual.
firstly - you have an awesome name ;D
secondly, i agree with you wholeheartedly. People need to read into the minds of people like this instead of just arrogantly rolling their eyes, hating and changing the channel. I couldn't imagine the torment he must've gone through, what with his abusive brother and ignorant parents. the dead-end job, the lack of sex(as he points out bitterly throughout the entries) and the lack of intimacy must have taken a heavy toll on his ability to see the good in life. he mentioned that syndrome where intense pain, over a long period of time, could be mistaken as normal: he was intelligent enough to
perceive what was happening to him...
which is chilling when you think about it...
many people in this forum have described their own psychological problems - i believe we all have a part of ourselves that we are unhappy about, or makes us unhappy. i know i do, and mine is very similar to this man. i'm only 18, so i can't begin to imagine what it feels like living like he did for nearly
50 years. he doesn't explain why he doesn't want to seek mental help - yes, perhaps it's because he thinks he doesnt have that choice, but on the other hand while he was self-aware and introspective enough to percieve that he was crazy, he could have made the decision to get therapy.
And maybe there's another side to it: maybe he held onto life hoping that it would get better (he chickened out in January and lived an extra 7 months, so his life must have taken a small turn for the best at some point), but finally on the 4th of august when his luck hadn't come around, he threw reason out the window in a spontaneous burst of frustration at his hard life. He speaks of drinking alcohol before 'doing it', which would have further reduced his ability to reason...and that was it.
Maybe we'll never know. We're only given his journal to formulate opinions; we can only speculate. But to all those people who look at this soul and spurt 'lol loser lol', you people are part of the reason that people do this, and you are part of a society who frowns upon the troubled individual because of a lack of understanding, tolerance and empathy.
As Izzil dons her cape and does her part (shouts to you, Izz! haha), just learn from this guy's journal, people. learn and understand why the outspoken, lonely 'rejects' of society are driven to perform these senseless, needless acts.