Ah,Sex.
I'm 17, male & never had sex.
My only girlfriend was a complicated relationship spanning nigh on three years. It ended two weeks ago on very odd terms. (not getting into that).
That little exposition was actually needed by the way. I am a bit of an odd cookie (or so modern society would have me believe) in the way I value relationships and sex.
Friends and strangers constantly go on about sex, 'I'd tap that' talk, I stay mostly out of it lest I throw a joke or two. I as a rule yet to be proven wrong am always attracted to just one person, even in the fancying stage, I am hopelessly dependant and love is my world, without it I see no reason to not pick up that knife five feet from me. (Note this doesn't mean if she leave me I'll top myself it's just that if I stopped believing I would in the end find somebody I'd have nothing, again not getting into it).
As I said, three years of a relationship, and yes I loved her, hopelessly so, did the thought of sex cross my mind? Yes, it did, a lot. Did we? No. Why? Again complicated, she did care for me, though I still don't know in what way, we never got that intimate (and aye, that does kill me, one of my very short list of regrets) but, I'm also sort of happy about the fact we didn't, yeah modern society might brand me odd for not having done so after such a long amount of time, but I want sex to be a pure expression of trust, love and intimacy as well as a host of things.
I want my first time to be with the girl my rest will, chances of that happening are slim granted, but I will definitely love them first. Sex to me, is the incarnation of life, it is everything in life that is important, a perfect expression of emotion a moment to forget yourself and the world, with all its harsh realities and to just love. To enjoy it too of course, as well as to ensure the other does, women are infamously harder to please sexual than men, or so I hear. But it is for both, not for me, and not for her, for 'us'
Yes, I have a romanticised version of sex, yes I have never had sex, but alas, life is what you make of it, and if sex is love, and love is life, then sex is what you make it.
P.S Glad to see a mature topic on such a thing.
P.P.S if I get any more cliché I'll turn into Romeo or something. *shudder*