Some people think I like calling games sexist. This just isn't true.

[Erttheking]

I think i've heard everything you have to say before from so many other people that you can't possibly be doing more than parroting the populist line without ever engaging your brain. It amazes me that you suddenly hate games you think are good because someone told you they are sexist, even though they probably aren't. The sexual assault feature is obviously a parody. Metro is set after a massive fall of humanity where women would more than likely be slaves not prostitutes. You seem to be confusing sexism and sexualisation. Hrmmm, could be something to do with computer games being pure fiction, even when based on real events.

Go have a cold shower, think for yourself and you will find that these issues that are bothering you enough to whine like a child are really nothing compared to the issues that real people in the real world experience on an everyday level. Go spend some time in liberia or look at the devestation in syria or palestine...you'll soon find a cause worthy of your emotional angst.

I don't hate them. I still love them. It just frustrates me to no ends that there are these stupid stupid STUPID elements that are holding them back. And I suffer from depression and last night, when I wrote this thread, everything had just built up. Little elements here and there that weren't enough to bother me on their own just all piled up and...it got to be too much.

Appeal to worse problems fallacy. And I would appreciate if you didn't call me a child, thank you very much. A little respect would be nice.

 

[Erttheking]

In my opinion if you constantly rage because of sexism in video games, and decide to vent said anger on the internet, you just love to hate. Even if it's subconsciously. Because otherwise you wouldn't constantly rage about little things or things that aren't even really sexist but part of the story/setting. (like in metro: last light's case.) Don't get me wrong, I don't see a problem with people getting angry about sexism in games, and wanting to call it out. But at the very least please be honest about it. Just be honest that you're passionate about the subject and -want- to call out sexism whenever you think it's there. (Not saying it isn't, just that perceived sexism might not always be as such.)

I personally draw a very thick line between having a discussion about a subject, and people getting angry about said subject, then venting it online. The latter hardly gets my attention, as nothing good comes out of it 90% of the time.

I do hate sexism. But I don't love to hate it. I am passionate about the subject, but I would love nothing more than for the subject to become a non-issue. I do want to call out sexism where I see it, but I'm tired of seeing it and would be much happier if it just vanished. It's...complicated.

 

[Silence]

Can someone get me context on this Persona 4 thing? As a person with social difficulties I would be quite afraid of people like the OP. I would fear that I would do some out-of-place body language and would be judged by that (in extreme cases being accused of trying to threaten her). While that doesn't mean I would fear for my life, it still can be realistic.

While I generally don't fear girls, I see how someone can. And this means, there is nothing sexist about him being afraid of girls.

No that's not what I was talking about. Naoto was a character who was kidnapped and she admitted that despite being a police officer, she was terrified. One of the characters pointed out "Well she's a lot younger than us" which makes perfect sense considering she was only 14, but then fucked it up by adding "Plus she's a girl"

Okay, at least now I understand it a little better. But does every male in this game talk like that? Or it is a depiction of one man? Is it normal in japanese (?) culture to talk like that? As far as I know, in western games no male would say that.

There is too much context here.

Edit: It is not sexism if you depict sexism. Quite the opposite actually, you could argue that it criticizes it. Still, I don't know Persona enough to judge this.

 

[lord canti]

Can someone get me context on this Persona 4 thing? As a person with social difficulties I would be quite afraid of people like the OP. I would fear that I would do some out-of-place body language and would be judged by that (in extreme cases being accused of trying to threaten her). While that doesn't mean I would fear for my life, it still can be realistic.

While I generally don't fear girls, I see how someone can. And this means, there is nothing sexist about him being afraid of girls.

No that's not what I was talking about. Naoto was a character who was kidnapped and she admitted that despite being a police officer, she was terrified. One of the characters pointed out "Well she's a lot younger than us" which makes perfect sense considering she was only 14, but then fucked it up by adding "Plus she's a girl"

Correct me if I'm wrong, but isn't Yosuke the one who said that? A that point he was very much established as the asshole of the group.

 

[Erttheking]

Can someone get me context on this Persona 4 thing? As a person with social difficulties I would be quite afraid of people like the OP. I would fear that I would do some out-of-place body language and would be judged by that (in extreme cases being accused of trying to threaten her). While that doesn't mean I would fear for my life, it still can be realistic.

While I generally don't fear girls, I see how someone can. And this means, there is nothing sexist about him being afraid of girls.

No that's not what I was talking about. Naoto was a character who was kidnapped and she admitted that despite being a police officer, she was terrified. One of the characters pointed out "Well she's a lot younger than us" which makes perfect sense considering she was only 14, but then fucked it up by adding "Plus she's a girl"

Okay, at least now I understand it a little better. But does every male in this game talk like that? Or it is a depiction of one man? Is it normal in japanese (?) culture to talk like that? As far as I know, in western games no male would say that.

There is too much context here.

Edit: It is not sexism if you depict sexism. Quite the opposite actually, you could argue that it criticizes it. Still, I don't know Persona enough to judge this.

Well it wasn't a guy, it was a woman. Which honestly makes it a little worse for me. And the way none of the characters (All of the party members were present for this) question it pretty much shows that they all agree with it. There is one main character that DOES act like a sexist jackass (Still like him) but every time he does so you can see the timer over his head reading "Karmatic retribution in 3...2...". Not so much in this case. As for Japanese culture...couldn't tell you.

I know this. The problem is that it quite simply wasn't criticizing sexism. She said it like it was the most obvious thing in the world and no one objected. Not even Naoto. And the entire point of her character is that she's supposed to be insecure about people looking down on her for her gender. It's massively OOC.

 

[Erttheking]

Can someone get me context on this Persona 4 thing? As a person with social difficulties I would be quite afraid of people like the OP. I would fear that I would do some out-of-place body language and would be judged by that (in extreme cases being accused of trying to threaten her). While that doesn't mean I would fear for my life, it still can be realistic.

While I generally don't fear girls, I see how someone can. And this means, there is nothing sexist about him being afraid of girls.

No that's not what I was talking about. Naoto was a character who was kidnapped and she admitted that despite being a police officer, she was terrified. One of the characters pointed out "Well she's a lot younger than us" which makes perfect sense considering she was only 14, but then fucked it up by adding "Plus she's a girl"

Correct me if I'm wrong, but isn't Yosuke the one who said that? A that point he was very much established as the asshole of the group.

Sadly it wasn't. It was Yukiko. And she's supposed to be the proper and polite one.

 

[Erttheking]

Can you really call those things sexist though when a lot of it makes sense given the context of the story,world, and characters?. Look I know what you're trying to say, I'm pissed that the new fatal frame has jiggle physics in it. I hate the fact that the man who made the boss also made quiet. But I dont turn myself into an emotional wreck because these little things are in other wise great games.

Edit: I'd also like to ask if Kanji getting made fun of by people for liking feminine things upset you as much as Naoto being afraid because she's a girl did?

I'm not sure it does make context. I mean, Anna in Last Light is supposed to me the best sniper of an order where you need two years of training before you can even be considered a junior member. She's the daughter of the leader who shows no signs of giving special attention to people. So the fact that she gets beaten so easily and has to be rescued by the much less experienced Artyom...just doesn't make sense.

Here's the thing though. Kanji being made fun of was made out to be tragic. It was painted as the cause of a lot of inner turmoil for him. It was depicting a problem, not supporting it. Naoto is just of handily said that it's ok for her to be afraoid in a life or death situation because she's female, and no one ever touches it again. It's treated as being correct, even though it completly goes

 

[Roxas1359]

I do hate sexism. But I don't love to hate it. I am passionate about the subject, but I would love nothing more than for the subject to become a non-issue. I do want to call out sexism where I see it, but I'm tired of seeing it and would be much happier if it just vanished. It's...complicated.

Think is though, it's never going to, no matter what and if you hold it up like that then you'll be calling out practically everything for as long as you live. You'll never be satisfied at all, as sexism will never go away because people perceive different things as sexist. Some to the extreme, and some barely see it at all. You need to learn to ignore certain things and get passed it, because otherwise you'll just get worse.

What I'm tired of is both sides of this debate making me hate the other more and more. I do want more women to be represented in games, but I'm not going to go into an emotional tizzy because of something like a "bride mode" or anything. And while I've not been called one on this site, I have been called a misogynist in real life just because I like video games (please note I told those people to fuck off shortly after that). See for me, I identify as a gamer because it's all I truly have. I've been bullied my entire life and have to take meds for severe depression, and in the past 3 years alone I've teetered on suicide about 4 times, so when I'm suddenly being lumped in as being called a misogynist then I'm gonna get pissed off. What I recommend to you is this: get off the Escapist for a while, get away from games for a while, and try to figure yourself out. Going more and more because

 

[lord canti]

Can someone get me context on this Persona 4 thing? As a person with social difficulties I would be quite afraid of people like the OP. I would fear that I would do some out-of-place body language and would be judged by that (in extreme cases being accused of trying to threaten her). While that doesn't mean I would fear for my life, it still can be realistic.

While I generally don't fear girls, I see how someone can. And this means, there is nothing sexist about him being afraid of girls.

No that's not what I was talking about. Naoto was a character who was kidnapped and she admitted that despite being a police officer, she was terrified. One of the characters pointed out "Well she's a lot younger than us" which makes perfect sense considering she was only 14, but then fucked it up by adding "Plus she's a girl"

Correct me if I'm wrong, but isn't Yosuke the one who said that? A that point he was very much established as the asshole of the group.

Sadly it wasn't. It was Yukiko. And she's supposed to be the proper and polite one.

Well, Yukiko was also raised to be a very traditional female by her family. So to her it would make sense for a girl to be afraid in a situation like that. Now if it was Chie who said it then I would be questioning why that line of dialogue would even be in the game. You also have to remember that the game is set in modern day japan. So it would make for all the other characters to agree with Yukiko's assessment. That's why Naoto thinks it's okay to be scared because she's a girl, because that is what the society has taught her Still, I do see where you're coming from and really can't argue with how you viewed the scene.

 

[CpT_x_Killsteal]

I thought the Escpaist going down for a minute when I hit post swallowed this, but I managed to resurrect it.

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Rather than disagree with you, I'd like to offer some advice.

You seem to be looking at things from a feminist theory critique, and viewing, well everything (if you're viewing something that's meant to be fun/relaxing through that lens, I'm gonna assume you do it with most other things too) through a feminist lens.

I'm not saying that's bad, I'm saying you need a fresh pair of eyes, another way to see things. I would recommend searching up different literary theories, no I'm not joking, these can help you view things from different perspectives. These are all about different ways of dissecting a text, but they can be applied to just about anything in life too. Whether it's Marxism (has similarities with feminism), different reader centered theories, author centered theories, New Historicism, Post-Modernism, Existentialist, Formalist, Structuralist, Post-Structuralist, World Centered, Deconstructionist, the list goes on and on.

I know this sounds, well, ridiculous, especially since I got all of this out of a 12th grade English extension resource folio (well this is where it started, my own research helped quite a bit), but it's drastically changed the way I see things, dissect them, and react to them.

With knowledge comes understanding, and with understanding comes... er, something. In any case, you'll see things in a different light, and be able to understand them and not break down.
I can give you the name of the textbook if you'd like, but you can also always just google some of the things I listed.

 

[lord canti]

Can you really call those things sexist though when a lot of it makes sense given the context of the story,world, and characters?. Look I know what you're trying to say, I'm pissed that the new fatal frame has jiggle physics in it. I hate the fact that the man who made the boss also made quiet. But I dont turn myself into an emotional wreck because these little things are in other wise great games.

Edit: I'd also like to ask if Kanji getting made fun of by people for liking feminine things upset you as much as Naoto being afraid because she's a girl did?

I'm not sure it does make context. I mean, Anna in Last Light is supposed to me the best sniper of an order where you need two years of training before you can even be considered a junior member. She's the daughter of the leader who shows no signs of giving special attention to people. So the fact that she gets beaten so easily and has to be rescued by the much less experienced Artyom...just doesn't make sense.

Here's the thing though. Kanji being made fun of was made out to be tragic. It was painted as the cause of a lot of inner turmoil for him. It was depicting a problem, not supporting it. Naoto is just of handily said that it's ok for her to be afraoid in a life or death situation because she's female, and no one ever touches it again. It's treated as being correct, even though it completly goes

I was more referring to Yosuke being an asshole to him, but as I said in a previous post he was already made to be the jack ass of the group. I also admit that I never played the Metro game, but even Angry Joe thinks the unnecessary nudity was ridiculous.

 

[Erttheking]

I do hate sexism. But I don't love to hate it. I am passionate about the subject, but I would love nothing more than for the subject to become a non-issue. I do want to call out sexism where I see it, but I'm tired of seeing it and would be much happier if it just vanished. It's...complicated.

Think is though, it's never going to, no matter what and if you hold it up like that then you'll be calling out practically everything for as long as you live. You'll never be satisfied at all, as sexism will never go away because people perceive different things as sexist. Some to the extreme, and some barely see it at all. You need to learn to ignore certain things and get passed it, because otherwise you'll just get worse.

What I'm tired of is both sides of this debate making me hate the other more and more. I do want more women to be represented in games, but I'm not going to go into an emotional tizzy because of something like a "bride mode" or anything. And while I've not been called one on this site, I have been called a misogynist in real life just because I like video games (please note I told those people to fuck off shortly after that). See for me, I identify as a gamer because it's all I truly have. I've been bullied my entire life and have to take meds for severe depression, and in the past 3 years alone I've teetered on suicide about 4 times, so when I'm suddenly being lumped in as being called a misogynist then I'm gonna get pissed off. What I recommend to you is this: get off the Escapist for a while, get away from games for a while, and try to figure yourself out. Going more and more because

I know. Trust me I know. I just...I just want a few games, just a few, that avoid falling into cliches and sterotypes about female characters. That just write them as women second and people first. Just so I can fall back on them when it's all getting to be too much. I need a safe place.

It's not just "One flaw, I hate this game! I'm going to have an emotional meltdown." It's just...I was in a bad place last night. And everything just piled up. It got to me.

 

[Erttheking]

Can you really call those things sexist though when a lot of it makes sense given the context of the story,world, and characters?. Look I know what you're trying to say, I'm pissed that the new fatal frame has jiggle physics in it. I hate the fact that the man who made the boss also made quiet. But I dont turn myself into an emotional wreck because these little things are in other wise great games.

Edit: I'd also like to ask if Kanji getting made fun of by people for liking feminine things upset you as much as Naoto being afraid because she's a girl did?

I'm not sure it does make context. I mean, Anna in Last Light is supposed to me the best sniper of an order where you need two years of training before you can even be considered a junior member. She's the daughter of the leader who shows no signs of giving special attention to people. So the fact that she gets beaten so easily and has to be rescued by the much less experienced Artyom...just doesn't make sense.

Here's the thing though. Kanji being made fun of was made out to be tragic. It was painted as the cause of a lot of inner turmoil for him. It was depicting a problem, not supporting it. Naoto is just of handily said that it's ok for her to be afraoid in a life or death situation because she's female, and no one ever touches it again. It's treated as being correct, even though it completly goes

I was more referring to Yosuke being an asshole to him, but as I said in a previous post he was already made to be the jack ass of the group. I also admit that I never played the Metro game, but even Angry Joe thinks the unnecessary nudity was ridiculous.

Well..yeah that does kind of annoy me. But at least when Yoskue is an asshole at least Kanji gets mad at him. And Yoskue tends to get a lot of karma for him being an asshole.

Yeah. It was pretty bad. Frankly I agree with Angry Joe's review of the game. Bad female characters. Too much nudity. Would give it a 9/10 without hesitation.

 

[Erttheking]

Can someone get me context on this Persona 4 thing? As a person with social difficulties I would be quite afraid of people like the OP. I would fear that I would do some out-of-place body language and would be judged by that (in extreme cases being accused of trying to threaten her). While that doesn't mean I would fear for my life, it still can be realistic.

While I generally don't fear girls, I see how someone can. And this means, there is nothing sexist about him being afraid of girls.

No that's not what I was talking about. Naoto was a character who was kidnapped and she admitted that despite being a police officer, she was terrified. One of the characters pointed out "Well she's a lot younger than us" which makes perfect sense considering she was only 14, but then fucked it up by adding "Plus she's a girl"

Correct me if I'm wrong, but isn't Yosuke the one who said that? A that point he was very much established as the asshole of the group.

Sadly it wasn't. It was Yukiko. And she's supposed to be the proper and polite one.

Well, Yukiko was also raised to be a very traditional female by her family. So to her it would make sense for a girl to be afraid in a situation like that. Now if it was Chie who said it then I would be questioning why that line of dialogue would even be in the game. You also have to remember that the game is set in modern day japan. So it would make for all the other characters to agree with Yukiko's assessment. Still, I do see where you're coming from and really can't argue with how you viewed the scene.

Still no matter what Japan's traditional view on women is, you'd think that Yuikio would realize that she's being pretty rude. I mean this scene happens directly after the fight with Naoto's shadow where all the baggage of Naoto being insecure about not being taken seriously because of her gender. Even if Yukiko didn't agree with her, her just saying that after everything she'd been through was just rude. At least it should have been rude.

 

[TheMigrantSoldier]

Can someone get me context on this Persona 4 thing? As a person with social difficulties I would be quite afraid of people like the OP. I would fear that I would do some out-of-place body language and would be judged by that (in extreme cases being accused of trying to threaten her). While that doesn't mean I would fear for my life, it still can be realistic.

While I generally don't fear girls, I see how someone can. And this means, there is nothing sexist about him being afraid of girls.

No that's not what I was talking about. Naoto was a character who was kidnapped and she admitted that despite being a police officer, she was terrified. One of the characters pointed out "Well she's a lot younger than us" which makes perfect sense considering she was only 14, but then fucked it up by adding "Plus she's a girl"

Slightly off-topic from the sexism issue, but I still think that it's problematic without the whole gender thing. Shouldn't being at the mercy of a possible murderer be terrifying for anyone, despite age and profession?

 

[Erttheking]

Can someone get me context on this Persona 4 thing? As a person with social difficulties I would be quite afraid of people like the OP. I would fear that I would do some out-of-place body language and would be judged by that (in extreme cases being accused of trying to threaten her). While that doesn't mean I would fear for my life, it still can be realistic.

While I generally don't fear girls, I see how someone can. And this means, there is nothing sexist about him being afraid of girls.

No that's not what I was talking about. Naoto was a character who was kidnapped and she admitted that despite being a police officer, she was terrified. One of the characters pointed out "Well she's a lot younger than us" which makes perfect sense considering she was only 14, but then fucked it up by adding "Plus she's a girl"

I still think that it's problematic without the whole gender thing. Shouldn't being at the mercy of a possible murderer be terrifying for anyone, despite age and profession?

Yes. It should be. It's why I wanted to scream at the TV screen "Of course she was scared Yukiko, ANYONE would be scared!"

 

[Roxas1359]

I know. Trust me I know. I just...I just want a few games, just a few, that avoid falling into cliches and sterotypes about female characters. That just write them as women second and people first. Just so I can fall back on them when it's all getting to be too much. I need a safe place.

Thing is though, those stereotypes and cliches aren't going away due to how they are ingrained in human history that spans centuries. Before they were called tropes, the term for them was archetypes, and they definitely won't be going away anytime soon no matter how much you want them. See, if you want a safe place, then a forum like this isn't really the best for you now. Again, I recommend that you take time away from forums, from gaming, and get yourself fixed first.

It's not just "One flaw, I hate this game! I'm going to have an emotional meltdown." It's just...I was in a bad place last night. And everything just piled up. It got to me.

Honestly, and I apologize if this sounds mean, but it sounds like it is in a lot of your posts at times when you blow up. You can be passionate about an issue, but don't get too emotionally wrapped up in it. Otherwise you'll just make yourself and what you stand for look bad. We all have times in which we are in a bad place, and when things get too much and we have mental breakdowns. Thing about that is, when that happens you are supposed to step back and take a good look at yourself before continuing on. That's what I've had to learn in my years of therapy because of things like bullying, be it cyber or real life, and having to deal with bipolar disorder and paranoia. It's better to take time off and be away from it.

 

[CannibalCorpses]

I think i've heard everything you have to say before from so many other people that you can't possibly be doing more than parroting the populist line without ever engaging your brain. It amazes me that you suddenly hate games you think are good because someone told you they are sexist, even though they probably aren't. The sexual assault feature is obviously a parody. Metro is set after a massive fall of humanity where women would more than likely be slaves not prostitutes. You seem to be confusing sexism and sexualisation. Hrmmm, could be something to do with computer games being pure fiction, even when based on real events.

Go have a cold shower, think for yourself and you will find that these issues that are bothering you enough to whine like a child are really nothing compared to the issues that real people in the real world experience on an everyday level. Go spend some time in liberia or look at the devestation in syria or palestine...you'll soon find a cause worthy of your emotional angst.

I don't hate them. I still love them. It just frustrates me to no ends that there are these stupid stupid STUPID elements that are holding them back. And I suffer from depression and last night, when I wrote this thread, everything had just built up. Little elements here and there that weren't enough to bother me on their own just all piled up and...it got to be too much.

Appeal to worse problems fallacy. And I would appreciate if you didn't call me a child, thank you very much. A little respect would be nice.

Maybe stop playing the depression card then...you aren't the only one with scars on their wrist and a daily desire to be dead. Wield your mind like a weapon not your weaknesses like a shield and maybe you can find a way to understand what has lead you to where you are. Maybe then you wont get worked up over trivial things like sexualised characters within a fictional setting.

I'm trying to be harsh but fair...only 1 of those was taught to me as a child

 

[Schadrach]

if you want a nice big does of crazy lefty liberal "activism" I'd recommend r/SRS r/SRSgaming you might not agree with everything they say but its a nice change from the usual BS

[sub/]just don't mention youre a guy or say anything that defends the cis white male...cause that's nott he done thing[/sub]

but yeah....fuck the patriarchy!

The whole SRS complex should be banned from Reddit entirely, and I'm not sure why they haven't been. They break Reddit policies with impunity and great frequency, and never seem to be punished for doing so. They even allow normal links to other subreddits, because nothing will happen to them if they go vote brigade so long as they don't openly talk about doing so on the subreddit itself, because they are miraculously immune to the same policies everyone else lives under.

By comparison, most subreddits that talk about anything remotely controversial require that Reddit links be np'd because otherwise the subreddit itself will be punished if anyone downvotes a linked post, and r/KotakuInAction (the GamerGate discussion subreddit) has gone so far as to ban all links to other places on Reddit outright because they've been threatened with having the subreddit shut down if there's even the appearance that they might potentially be up to anything shady.

Oh, and the subscript there is dead on, errtheking would likely have been banned from SRS for his OP in this thread because he acknowledged the idea that a woman can commit sexual assault against a man, and that it isn't funny.

 

[happyninja42]

Some people act like I get some kind of thrill out of seeing sexism in gaming. I don't. I hate it. I hate seeing these problems everywhere. I hate games I love grinding to a halt because the alarms in my head are going off. I hate not being able to enjoy the brilliant atmosphere of Metro Last Light as much as I could because there's a little voice in the back of my head reminding me all the female characters are prostitutes, caretakers or victims. I hate the fact that even though Persona 4 has some of the best female characters I've ever seen it still delves into bullshit by having it being understandable when Naoto is afraid because "She's a girl". I hate that Fire Emblem Awakening has a beautifully written mother-daughter relationship that is marred by the fact that there's a female exclusive class called the bride and that sexual assault is apparently funny when a woman does it to a man.

It makes me want to crawl into a crack and cry myself to sleep. In fact I've been doing a fair bit of crying tonight because of it. I just...I just want to sit down and be able to enjoy something without having the part of me that cares noticing another stupid flaw in an otherwise brilliant work. It tears me apart and it just makes me want to scream "CAN SOMEONE JUST FUCKING GET IT RIGHT ALREADY!?" It's just these little moments in otherwise great games, games that I love, that make me just want to scream "WHY!?"

I'm sorry if I'm rambling a bit. But I've seen more than one person say that people keep calling games sexist because it lets me feel self righteous. That's not true. It just isn't. Sometimes I wish I could just turn it all off and not care...but I just can't.

I love games. And it makes me want to cry when they fall short like this. They could be so much more...but they keep tripping. Please. Someone out there. Please get it right. I'm tired of cross examining every single game a play for stupid STUPID mistakes. They just bring the experience down.

I just wanted to share why I keep talking about sexism in gaming. Because I want games to improve so I can just lie down and breathe easy. So I don't have to worry about bullshit around every corner.

You're asking for perfection, which is pretty hard to attain. Perhaps you should try and relax a little bit when it comes to this stuff in games, and understand that nobody is perfect, including game designers. I'm not saying this to be mean, but if you really are crying yourself to sleep over the sexist aspects of the video games you play, you should probably:

1. Stop playing so many games with content like that.
2. Figure out if it's actually the games making you cry, and not something else in your life.
3. Try and relax a bit and don't take it all so personally.
4. Talk to somebody, like a professional. Seriously, emotional outbursts because of video game content is a fairly strong reaction to something. You might need to vent to someone in person who is a professional about discussing these things.